hey guys..its me again..im bored..so i might as well share how my life is going with you all..u dont have to read if u dont want to..:P
well lets see..my last "serious" entry was a downer..but i grew from that..my look on it now is that God will not put me in any situation that i can not handle..he won't let me leave me down there hanging wanting to just do nothing with my life..he put me in that situation to tell me that there is more out there for me..there are better things out there for me..he opened my eyes to things ive always wanted but never thought i could get or i didnt think i deserve.
at this point last year..my school life was not going too well..i felt like i was pressured to pursue something i had no passion for..of course it was my fault to just go with it just because everyone sed for me to do it..everyone told me the money was there..nursing isnt that bad..to tell you the truth..its not that bad..but its not for me..i dont want to spend the rest of my life doing something i dont want to do..i dont want to be a nurse and look back at what i couldve done..i stood up to my parents..i told them what i want..i told them that i dont want them to plan my life..i went for what i want..now im at FIT pursueing my dream..
at this point last year..i felt alone..i felt like i had no friends..i kept to myself..i didnt go out much..or at all even..i kept to myself and one person...but something happened..my heart got broken..of course then i was upset and i just wanted to die..but looking back now..if that didnt happen..i wouldnt be where i am now..u start to realize that your friends do care..even when i backed out on plans with them..and didnt talk to them..they still wanted to comfort me..gettin my heart broken led me to a new life style..i started going out..i started making myself happy..but i felt like i was still missing something..after spending a day with friends..i would come home and still feel alone..i had my friends and everything..i jus didnt know wat was going on..
this led me to a life changing oppurtunity..a friend had asked me if i wanted to go to a retreat..i wasnt really taking it seriously..but he explained everything to me..and i thought maybe its what i need after everthing that had happened.. i almost didnt go because i just wanted to stay home..well good thing i didnt..this was my time to find me..to find God..after this weekend i never felt alone..not because i found a new family that i will love forever..but i found God again..i totally lost site of him..and just to know that he is the only one that is going to be there for me..i will never be lonely again..
through my hard times and feeling like no one loved me..i kept praying to God why give me a broken heart..i thought to myself that there was no way that i can move on and start over..i didnt think that i could ever love someone again..i didnt think that i could trust anyone ever again..but God gave me someone..he sent my an angel to literally sit right next to me on a retreat where im suppose to find myself and God..he sent me someone who can give me what i need..what i deserve..and treat me the way i'm suppose to be treated..he sent me a companion..a protector..a supporter..a new best friend..he sent me someone i can trust..someone i can love again..he sent me the one i can spend the rest of my life with..he sent me daniel james tabao..:)
as i look back at this past year..i do believe that things do happen for a reason..to make things all better..:) |